Yesterday was the first day of the equinox so I thought use that as an excuse to write a blog post.
Hey Page Turners!
It is Autumn! Literally questioning every single day where does the time go! You can really feel the chill and bite of Autumn in the air. I am kind of sad to let go of summer but as Fitzgerald said 'Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall.' And with the new academic year it really does feel like a new start. I feel like the spring and summer seasons are full of colour and socialising whereas autumn and winter are intimate (being on your own) and the vibes. I mean when the leaves start turning orange you know what season it is!
My summer (kind of) goal was to blog more and I did, but not as much as I wanted too. I think I have posted every month though whether it be one post or a few...for me right now that is enough.
I feel like my blog has become a sort of online diary where I report back what I have been doing and I am here for it because those who know me know that I am nostalgia 101; diaries, journals, things to look back on and reflect are just who I am and it just is so refreshing to look back and see what I wrote to today and what I am writing and how much it has changed and/or stayed the same.
So let's begin I think with updates and then we can get into reflections and the upcoming month(s).
Updates so not much to report on...I am back at work and it is literally full on. Working in the education sector is so rewarding so humbling but it is also very demanding and tiring...I was talking to a colleague of how teachers and those who work in the health care are so little payed compared to say footballers. I can appreciate the training and commitment they do but I mean can anyone justify the expense we put into footballers rather than education and health. Working in the education sector has really opened my eyes up to how schools are run like a business and how money is such a huge factor and has a massive impact, rather than having children as a priority it is money. I am going of on a tangent but I will say this...seeing the children grow and evolve and learn are one of the best thing to witness.
Uni officially starts in October...but I am already stressing! (It's the WhatsApp groups where you have people say I am so ahead-I am joking it is partially this) I love to be organised, it's who I am, I hate last minute things because of the stress and anxiety and sod's law coming into place. With work and life I just haven't had the time to delve into textbooks and get my head around literary jargon again and uni is fast approaching and I just want to be in a place where I am a little ahead of the modules. I am planning to start this weekend but after work I am just so shattered that I haven't had a chance to so this weekend is a must! Oh and did I mention it is my last year of uni, so stress, self-doubt, nerve wracking months ahead of me but at the end it will all be worth it.
I also feel in the Sep/Oct months are all go..go..go getting back on your feet and it can be hard so this year I am taking a mental health breaking (something I made up) where I can just switch of reconnect with nature/religion and most importantly myself, life sometimes is overwhelming and you just need to sometimes step back and breath, collect yourself and go back out stronger. I think it is so important to do this and mental health always comes first. I feel like it is always around this time that I kind of neglect my religion too so this time I want make that priority and bring that to the forefront to all I do.
I finished Adnan's Story by Rabia Chaudry my first non-fiction true crime and I was obsessed, and captured by the story the people and amazed at how prejudice the system is. A book I think I will be recommending for some time.
The Queen died. As the world mourned for BIPOC people (including myself) it was a reminder of the British Empires violent past of colonialism and exploitation. Alongside that no one can take away her longest reign title or the fact that she inspired hope in the bleakest of times. I think for me it is her family, to them she wasn't 'The Queen' she was just a mother, a grandmother who had a unique job and they lost her to something inevitable. This I can respect. I would be lying if I said I wasn't saddened by the news because after all she was all you knew. The monarch is a big thing and an even bigger thing if your living in the UK. (Especially thinking of Diana who could have been Queen Consort but alas it wasn't meant to be kismet and all that)
I have been reading a lot of books for uni and I have found some favourites (upcoming posts) and I feel the upcoming months are just going to be filled with everything uni so I will be posting-hopefully- about uni and keeping you all updated. You can keep updated on all my reads on my Instagram/Goodreads. I have been reading less as I started work again but now I can hopefully pick up some more books as we are settling in. I am in a hiatus but I will always be reading. That is a little snapshot of my update I probably left a few hundred things out, but will be back with posts and updates let me know how you are all getting on in the comments.
With Love and Dua's,
Fiz @Every Page She Turns
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